Venting about troubles

Ok, I need to add a disclaimer first. The information you are about to read is intended for venting purposes only and should not be used against me in any form or fashion in the internet blogging rules.

Here goes: I have had so much information to read in the last 3 weeks I don’t know what I have read. I have read 4 chapters in books, thousands of blogs (Ok, maybe not thousands), created numerous blogs, attended 5 meetings, created two blog accounts, one aggregate count, instant messanger account, tapped in account and still managed to host a birthday party, 3 days a week tae kwon do, 3 days a week soccer, take my son to the doctor, and (oh yea!!) teach class. I have so many user names, it takes me at least 3 to 4 tries to log in any of the above names sights. I have information overload. I love the fact that I am learning, but I am not a “digital native” and don’t work at light speed like my students (yet). I feel as thought I am not grasping all the information that I need to be in order to be able to participate fully in our class. I still can’t figure out how to add wordpress to my gmail account to blog there without having to go to the wordpress site. (Thanks for all your help guys, I tried to do it, but was unsuccessful).
I think that I have created all of this myself. I have tried to do everything this semester, but didn’t allot myself enough time to rest. I have been up every night till 11:00 blogging or reading in order to get all of it read before I am bombarded the next day with 50 new blogs. I am trying to write a grant for a Pd I would like to see in our area as well as taking a job in a new school where I have to travel to the middle school in the middle of the day. I feel as thought I am never caught up and don’t have anything profound to say because I am trying to read everything so fast that I am only getting the gist of it before blogging on it and moving to another blog. My major concern is that I am reading all of this information, but because I am reading so much new stuff that I am unable to process it into my memory before new stuff comes along and crowds it out. A lot of stuff I feel that I need to communicate with other students better on, but feel guilty to bother other students that are having as much info overload as I am. Maybe, I am just a big complainer, but I really feel that I am just doing what it takes to get by and not really adding anything to the class. I of course try to bring new thoughts and perspectives, but I am not as well informed as some and I don’t feel that I comprehend things that I read in the same manner as everyone else. In English class when the teacher asked,” So, what do you think the author ment by that”, I was always wrong. I don’t think like anyone else and tend to have different (incorrect thoughts). Now, let me gripe a little on my English teachers. I feel that my perspective on a poem is just as good as anyone else’s, unless they actually spoke with the author and asked what they ment by it. I also think if you no one knows what is really about then it isn’t that good of a poem anyways. Ok, I am now done. I assume that we will probably not be asked to do this again so I wanted to make sure I got everything out. Oh, if I forgot something I will post it later (ha). Thanks for listening everyone. I will make it through it. That which does not kill us, will only make us stronger. (or something like that)